Seeking a kinky sexual abuse survivor interested in sexual healing within a safe container.

I was sexually abused by both my mother and grandfather and have been doing work to heal these wounds for over 20 years. It has led me to a powerful practice of peer-to-peer sex therapy that I've been doing for the last four years. This is a sexual practice, but sidesteps the typical sexual script and is intended to allow space for us to go deep into our wounds/fears/issues in order to heal them. We take turns and let the sexual interaction bring up the issues for us to work through. We essentially guide ourselves, but hold space for each others healing processes.

I'm seeking a new woman to explore this with who can relate to a history of sexual abuse and who is a kinky sub. I am a very sensual DOM and prefer hands to toys. I am most aroused by manhandling, restraint, hair pulling, choking, biting, and slapping of breast, ass, thighs, pussy, and face. Fetishes also include anal play/sex, extreme penetrations, deep throating and Daddy/girl dirty talk. I'm also very in touch with my inner child these days and love to incorporate a lot of slow, tender and intimate interaction alongside the hardcore expressions.

Much of my trauma is more relational in nature from being abused within a triad relationship. I have longed to re-write this experience by exploring within a healthy loving threesome situation. I have a dear friend interested in joining us. She is experienced in sex therapy with me already and has very similar sexual interests. She is submissive with me but likes to be dominant with women and would likely want to don her strap-on and fuck you as well. DP perhaps?

Though I do want one-on-one interactions, the threesome exploration is a large aspect of my desires and healing potential right now and therefore want to include her in this process. I will likely do the initial correspondence, but if it seems like a good match then she will join in the conversation and meeting in person. My ideal would be to do a weekly session and have her join us every other week but could be flexible depending on everyone's needs.

While a lot of my own exploration is geared towards staying present, integrating my adult/child parts, and feeling safe to fully express my desires, she is currently having some acute trauma come to the surface. I am quite comfortable holding space for this, and it is important that you also be comfortable with intense emotional expression and able to hold a loving compassionate presence throughout. Although it is imperative that you can relate to the challenges of sexual abuse survivors, your own healing needs could be more along the lines of exploring kink or other aspects of your sexuality that need some attention.

We are both very self aware, dedicated to our healing and communicate very opening and directly. We are looking for a safe, loving person who is similar in these ways. We are also looking for someone sexy! I know for myself, attraction is quite important and I am a bit selective. Please respond with both pics (full body and face) and height/weight as well as age to help assure we are a match in this department. As far as us..... I am 44, 6'1" and 180lbs and she is 25, 5'8" and 120. We are both very active people in good shape and would likely be attracted to the same.

We would also really appreciate a thorough response sharing openly about why you are interested in this type of exploration, how well your sexual interests match ours, and any questions/concerns you may have. Also, if you are very interested yet want to be sure that a mutual attraction is likely before pouring your heart out, feel free to state this and just send pics and height/weight. And if you are really drawn to the sex therapy aspect but not the threesome exploration I still welcome your response.

Look forward to hearing from you!